I’m new to HD, but I just obtained my HD profile with the discovery that my Saturn sphere is 59.4.
About three weeks ago, I drew an I Ching/Astrology ring (see end of this post) to read the zodiac correspondences and programming partners at antipodes to each other. I found that 59 lies along my Leo-Virgo Ascendant cusp with natal Saturn … an opening into a gene key field I hardly yet stepped into. Here is my contemplation of the 59th gene key on that day:
Journal 8 January 2018
The grips of the mind appear more determined as the light gets in, that is because it shows them up more. They seem cruel, bent on upsetting me, but they are not conscious; they are ways of inertia. They are indeed habitual what-if voices, or i-thoughts. The habit plays their tune. Enlightenment is a gradual disentanglement, disengaging from the forest of fear.
I completed my fourth Codon Rings drawing. I am well pleased with it. There are just a couple more to do. These maps are lovely to just look at. I will put them all together in a later post, for reference.
I listened to Richard’s contemplation of 52, the Mountain. He says in it, the attunement or breath is into the perineum, between anus and genitals, which bookends the spine with fontanel at crown (fountain). The stillness of the mountain is within all things, and the relaxing of stress into restraint and the mountain siddhi is a core purpose. There is layer upon layer of core wound to gently descend, unwind and open solar plexus to the root of life. I feel the resistances or “catches”, but am going in the right direction. In the awakening centre of gravity, all worries and negative imaginings vanish. Be still. Pause. Give time to love each line in a hexagram, and to love each contour in a profile, and each sensation in a day. To love is to give space and time. This becomes an unconditional affection with the pitfalls of people; not resentment. The being at ease comes not with fanfare, but slowly as a weather change.
I am in a Current. I connected to the perinial root at Xmas, and now here’s Richard talking about it in the Mountain over Mountain.
The wizard of Oz for all his oddities, hit bulls eye ten years ago, when he said (about “Sarah” and her sex life) that the perineum is the seat of our occult memory. Whenever it is alive and awake, the subtle wellbeing silences the harpies. It out-sources them. There is the flow of the Great River. It has no need to be verbal, and so it sees through prickly hedges and sometimes from above them. In my body it begins to collapse some maintained positions and tensions. It is bound to, and with the falling walls is fear. A slightly increased clarity in my hearing makes my head boom rather, as if in water. Think Release, release, as the causes of tiredness which are stress, tremble loose and dissolve. I love the story of a Persian boy whose Purpose is gk29: leaping into the void. He jumped into a river to save an old man, and nearly drowned himself in the flooding current, but his up-flung arm just caught the branch of a tree overhead. The power of the river! The Wind which is the Wood is over the Water. Which hexagram is that? Look it up … It is 59 – the Dragon in the Genome. Through the gift of intimacy, the siddhi of transparency liberates from dishonesty … Here we go! my daughter’s gene-key-profile Purpose. I’m not too familiar with this one, and had intended to read it again.
How nourishing is this continuous gene key exposure at the moment; may it live and grow and reveal my Purpose and how to do things and where to be of use.
This is a tree – the wind in the I Ching is also wood – over river water; and in the river below and among the roots is a Tao or an Eye.
The Dragon in the Genome has this fascinating aspect of a baby serpent coiled in a DNA mystery nest. Think of all the genetic mythos about the human and the snake! The snake came down a fruit tree to the woman who is the river, the river. Be ye wise as serpents!
I drew it with Eve and Adam (after Lucas Cranach) …
and I drew it in the Tarot Lovers …
and I drew it with the woman gentling the Lion. The Lion’s tail is itself serpentine, the kundalini power among the trees. The Lion begins to roar in a different way with the woman’s caress. The symbolism arrives again to my daughter, a Chinese-astrology Snake; and her feeling for cats, and the electricity she sometimes has in her hands, and the dream she had when she was about twelve, that she looked into a tiger’s eyes and it became quiet. Those are her ancient gift. Don’t dwell on it, or pre-empt how she sees herself. Impressions such as these are lightly touched. They are keys, and the softest sounds in music are the most telling.
Turning to the book now – I read the Siddhi first, and then the shadow and gift – I discover that 59 is in the Ring of Union, together with 29 the Waters the Persian boy leapt into! In the Ring of Union are also 4 Forgiveness and 7 (the Army) Virtue. Here is my fifth Codon Ring drawing:
In general, 59 seems to be the root of human sexuality. “The 59th Gift is the seed or semen, and the 55th Gift is the egg … when the semen is spent, the egg is no longer needed. What you have left is a state beyond description and beyond evolution. Transparency is what remains when evolution becomes meaningless … it acts as the conduit for awareness.”(r.r.)
The 59th Siddhi in fact dissolves all human and universe form into abstract, and perhaps mathematicians love to be puzzled by its anomaly. It is sort of before the source of sperm or Yod. If the source of sperm or Yod is mother, where then could it be, anterior to that? Chicken or egg? The Shadow of this Siddhi may tangle up some brambles in the lower intellect’s dense element.
But the Codon Ring of Union has a story. “These four Gene Keys have long governed human relationship patterns and their dysfunctions on our planet. … The sequence leading to Transparency begins with the process of Forgiveness, triggered by the 4th gene key. Once you have forgiven yourself, using your relationships as a mirror, you will discover your true aura of Virtue (7). Once you have found your inner virtue, you begin to pour yourself out into others, recognising the same Divine source in every person you meet. This Devotion (29, the Waters) is the true doorway to Transparency (59). It empties you out …
“In nature the 59th Gift is represented by the Golden Mean, a universal geometric form underlying all creation. However, if one tries to create a spiral out of the golden mean to represent this Siddhi in its entirety, one immediately meets a well-known mathematical impasse because such a figure would have no beginning and no end … it cannot appear in nature or be understood by mathematics. It simply does not appear to exist, hence its Transparency. Transparency taken to a collective level entails the disappearance of our universe.”(r.r.)
Pause here. Private miracles blossom. These ideas touching quantum invoke how the impasse felt with Lajos in the past. An expression of myself, which felt essential and deeply needed to share – unify – as soon as it was out, it seemed to disintegrate or demolish him. This existential quantum made him hate me … (and hate perhaps all women?) … it cut him off from his creative pressure and its importance and inflicted a fiery ache in his gut – the solar plexus fury.
As soon as Richard mentions IMPASSE, it evokes Lajos in the 1970s, who kept discussing our impasse, which he pronounced as if it was a French word with an accented e. In the beginning he was in earnest to get to the bottom of it and clarify and sort it out, but as time went on, it became a violent rage. That is not surprising; he felt locked out from his stability.
The solar plexus fury, grinding bloody awful pain – I received his, and transmuted it during my 1980s earthquake. But that’s a later story. I’m still “working on it”.
My poor daughter! She was born with this parental impasse to somehow surmount into her Purpose 59.3. And with her triple Thunder spearhead (IQ, EQ and SQ) for her inner reality, she refused to adopt any esoteric pathway or hold Mum’s hand. If she did that, she would lose her own sense of self. What I am trying to say here is – there were living abstract whirlpools in my consciousness which interfered with her father’s, and she made some effort to deal with this inheritance – partially – by studying mathematics.
These ideas touch on her gene keys only. They are not how she sees herself and her life. I can’t help seeing them, because that is my inner landscape, but don’t attach them to hers with Expectation. The Siddhi idea is beyond her conscious game; as honest as the day she was born, she meets difficult challenges and needs to complete them – the dragon’s intimate gift. In this teaching, you see the Siddhi in a person, in order to liberate and let go your own attitude or limitation with them. “The 59th siddhi contains the ability to look upon the world … (or into tiger’s eyes) … without judgement.” (r.r.)
The big book says that transformations and mutations in our world evolve the awareness very quickly through the 59th Gift and siddhi. Awareness evolves; consciousness does not. Consciousness includes evolutionary awareness.
Finally there is the Mayan feathered serpent, Quetzalcoatl, who returned his coil through the alchemical marker of 2012 when a certain frame of time’s cycle ended.
2027 – nine years’ time – is a portal in Richard’s download, which will start to see a dramatic and visible change in human beings and the way they organise themselves. I will be pushing eighty! I will take care through Saturn and Pluto’s transit together through my Sun Moon axis … to bloom and flourish.
A serpent is one curve of a spiral. The serpent, like a fragment of an arch in archaeology, indicates that the spiral without beginning or end exists. The serpent harmonises with the bird (dragon feathers) – lower with higher nature.
“Genes operate below our conscious awareness – the hidden human agenda to survive. You might even say that God is hidden within our genes, but until we raise our frequency we cannot experience God. We therefore must learn to be transparent with ourselves, and interacting with others. Let our barriers down and look deeply into our fears … our genes are not exclusive but inclusive … no man is an island … We are all one genetic tribe moving through a huge and transformative period in history, the end result of which is the realisation of our unity.” (r.r.)
My journal/oracle is not a talisman for handling immediate relationships or problems as I might like to. It doesn’t tell me what to do, but takes a back seat. I have to step down from its florescence into an appropriate level and not push my story or enthusiastic version, but learn to hear and … not be in haste.
Shadow and Gift: 55, 59 and 49 together trigger a current transmutation in our DNA. (How primitive my knowledge of this at present is!) It is tiring to carry that, not knowing what it is.
“The 59th key is the sexual drive in human beings. Genes have their survival in mind, and most relationships are not easy by design.” Cosmology operates through our genetics.
59th Shadow “hides a deep distrust of others. The fear springs into action when the other is in the room. Why does this fear – the foundation of sexual attraction – exist at all? … the fear provides the necessary friction that makes attraction possible. ” (I shorten Richard’s writing a bit). So, it has the Shadow of Dishonesty, to keep something hidden for the other to fear. This doesn’t happen consciously, it can in fact sabotage good will.
Persephone feeds Cerberus
Now this sentence: “Life itself has been holding humanity back from realising its higher nature. Life needs human beings to be afraid of each other in order that it can fulfil its genetic potential in this current stage of our evolution.” (r.r.)
And so, there is at present the state of social enmity! The sense of HOLD-BACK in the red-tape snarl! A society that is punitive and unkind to itself!
Here are so many coils and clues that I feel in myself. And breathe …
The accelerated interracial interbreeding of tribal gene pools triggers political correctness and all the newspeak drivel and bureaucracy and cross-country barbed wire against refugees. It feels like the whole human race is in arrest while the moment for movement draws near. It is a great rock like a media – or cosmic? – meteorite dropped in the river bed, and the water stands around it. Wars and differentiations and stand-offs have yet, down through history, created certain genetic oases and flowerings. And those are always accessible when we turn within. Such is the paradox. My relative peace is the result of my wars in past lives.
“Our fear of each other is brought to the surface for all to see.”
Wow what a demon Shadow this is!
“The 59th Gene Key cuts deeper than race, belief or creed. (The 55th mutation undermines the 59th shadow). It goes deeper even than the individual blood ties of family. It binds humans together as a single interrelated genetic family. The world of today, with its differentiated tribes, societies, nations and boundaries, is at the very beginning of being utterly transformed.” (r.r.) No wonder the fundamentalists are terrified, and exporting terror and paranoid weaponry! Yet they unite the forces of the will-to-good to awaken around and against them. So do not despair with the puppet shadows which the rising sun illumines. They are better seen out in the open, than concealed. In a funny sort of way, they “volunteer”.
The transformative foundation is not in revolution or society or economy, but in the fact that Fear will gradually be bred out of human beings. And first, in all its hideous manifestations, it comes out and up to the surface where it starts to disintegrate. And first, all we can see is the disintegrative patterns and the decay of the concept of political heroes. And I must keep seeing and sensing what erupts beneath and through the fear pattern. Within a renewed and sustainable landscape of being, the present murky puddle is just that. This is beyond wishful thinking, it has something to do with the genetic matrix’s will to survive and to grow. If we have connected with and suffered the blazing emotional forces within us, we understand this better.
Copy of Master R’s painting in The Holy Trinosofia
Next is mentioned “the androgynous species”. When the fear of each other is bred out – and it has to breed, to be bred out! – “the separate sexual poles will come together within the individual human being.”
Yes indeed. My poles came together through love, and this was their existing potential, through the above process. I’m glad to have found this about the polarity again – which I visualised as a yew or ebony wand. The quintessential quality is “bi sexual”. It does not project onto another but is self-contained – the alchymical wedding; and as this tendency gestates in humankind, the birth rate shall drop.
In this light, see child father mother triad objectively and with a kind of awe.
The 59th Shadow is dishonesty, but we always found and find our timing to come clean.
“There are now personality types leaving the world, never to return. The old ways are having their last fling in the world, and we can see this in the battle between the collective way of the future and the old tribal ways of the past … all elements of behaviour rooted in fear or hidden agendas will be ( Richard has also recently been talking about the Sun’s behaviour) FUSED into a higher functioning of our DNA.”
This for me embraces the concept of Solar Fusion rather than nuclear Fission as a future energy source. It is being developed, as far as I know, in Switzerland and the UK under the ITER project. It brings countries together in cooperation – that is its nature. Fusion generates more than itself and there is no waste; fission’s divisive energy subtracts from Gaia. A social psychology fuelled by Fusion technology may utterly change our view of ourselves and nature.
Hermes Trismegistos said, “Here is the action of the Sun in my great work.” The solar photon moving in every direction self-ignites; it is in the air so to speak, and this is Illumination.
“One has to be able to read between the world headlines … behavioural integrity at home … the genetic cleansing we are currently experiencing on a global level will very likely go on for a number of centuries. It has to work its way out of our DNA through our bloodlines. However, as the human population decreases due to our mutating sexuality and the lessening of global fear, the world will naturally become a quieter and more peaceful place. The so called Judgement Day is taking place within our genes. No individuals are punished or rewarded. There is simply an increase of genetic material with holistic perspective coming into the world, and a gradual eradication of genetic material which is self destructive and isolationist…. Since the world is evolving naturally in a particular direction, your behaviour will either flow in that direction or oppose that direction. … Come clean … Take out the genetic laundry… One thing is sure, if you move against evolution at a time such as this, you will meet an opposing force whose power is incomprehensible.” (r.r.)
What is Pluto’s orbital segment through Capricorn, but this evolution at such a time?
With gene keys, I limber up for it, as during the next few years it is illumined through my gold and silver Sun full-Moon channel in Capricorn. The conjunction with Saturn is on my birthday in two years’ time. The gene key transmission arrived spontaneously in the thread.
The Repressive and Reactive poles of the 59th Shadow are Excluded and Intrusive. Feeling excluded was very isolating; fearing intruders (hands reaching through wall) was a nightmare. … The soul – the genetic matrix – commands these experiences directly, to grow out of them.
The 59th Gift is Intimacy: Sublimation and the Serpent. What beauty!
The Chinese hexagram is named Dispersion. It is Wind over the Water. I am led to it this morning by my Tao Tree River drawing. The Shadow human frequency’s interest is only to disperse itself as widely and frequently as possible. I see this in all fields, not just sexual. The deep evolutionary urge is to give birth to a higher form: for the serpent to shed its skin.
Tantra allies raw sexuality with higher consciousness – the fertile mud and the lotus. But no one can force the bud.
“If Kaccha married Devyani, daughter of the demon king, and settled with the demons, the gods would never know the secret their existence depends upon. Devyani tried to win back by love what her father had lost. K. was no fool, and he let her down with gentle remonstrance and returned to his proper region with the nectar” – from The Sacred India Tarot 2011
The potential higher functioning of my sexuality was confusing, right from my adolescence. There were meadows and moorlands it had to traverse. It suffered in ardent youth, from fantasy and judgement. It had a string of difficult partners and hungers.
INTIMACY! Always a bugbear. Intimacy allows the confession of fear.
Collectively, “the 59th Gift of Intimacy has a deep underlying non-linear pattern”. You can see how this mutates over the generations.
The sexual force is a wild yet spiralling form. Chaos-theory fractals began to intuit it.
Creative transformational patterns and geometries are found across human relationships. They are holographic. “The power of human intimacy is the power of two human auras interacting to create a third aura, whilst in the process the two original auras are sublimated.”(r.r.)
The third aura is either a child, or it is wisdom – the combination magid. Or it may be both. The two converge and are led by this progressive point. The only way to find out what is really going on in one’s relationship is to ask this point between. But usually I was caught up in the personalities. The ageless wisdom shows us that in Creation there was One but never Two, because the instant One divided into Two – the core wound – there was a Three to unify (One) the Two; and from Three (multiplication) proliferated the Tetragrammaton, Pentacle, Hexagon, Heptagon, figure of Infinity and 9, which multiplies infinitely into nine. 9 (3 squared) is called the triple triad, the 4 is Tetrahedron.
“The more differentiated the original auras are, the more potential there is for transcendence.” (r.r.)
Friction is valued.
“The heart centre is the higher glandular functioning of the solar plexus cauldron.” In the I Ching the Cauldron is 50, “Ting”.
When men and women and those who love their own gender meet in the heart, the genital union can fulfil. Otherwise you put the cart before the horse.
The sublimation of sexuality collectively, is a shattering process: Chaos first, and then the higher emergence.
The chaotic breaking down of world aura is witnessed, to birth the Third awareness.
The humanosphere is alive with pioneers.
Care for sexual intimacy restores and will restore our alienated environment.
This new wheel I am drawing is actually circular, but I tilted the camera angle.
It is not finished yet, as I have to ink in the zodiac signs and draw a grail symbol for the centre. There is a mistake at Hexagram 13 – it should be Heaven over Fire, not Lake. Work in progress!
And here’s a detail, close up
Looking at my new I Ching Wheel, 59 begins at cusp Leo Virgo, my Ascendant and Saturn! A small illumination on my map – the 59-55 axis is along my Ascendant or “Earth”; and its pathway filled my life. Very interesting therefore to have given birth to a daughter whose radiance-purpose is 55/59! This discovery clarifies my feeling of responsibility to her wellbeing, and the requirement to keep the right distance and detachment and respect for her to work out her salvation. It bonds us deeply. It passed from her grandmother’s EQ 55 genetically into her embodied expression. I was and am a carrier.
This titbit starts to show me how to find the gene keys in my chart, and what they are doing, and why some of them are highly significant and attractive, which are not in my profile. The contemplation of each one, activates it.
Thank you dear Midi for the siddhi/61 card on my birthday!
and to conclude – this heart-lifting music arrived today in my email for breakfast. Siddhartha Tom Corsus introduced me to gene keys four years ago, through his blog The Sun Hermit. And if you visit there to hear his songs, go to April 2014 to read ‘Gene Keys – the story of a Book‘ … it takes everything back to the beginning before anything is said. With love.
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